Lever i en värld med två familjer <3 Nina Olofsson

Little brother , time goes by so fast, you'll be 3 years old soon

Early morning here now, lil'kiddo is sleeping ( my friends kid)

Sorry that I haven't been writing here for a long time , but been kinda busy with school and other things.

12th of march was a hard day coz that's the day I lost my twins, lost them 2012-03-12 , and worse when I lost my nephew just about a week ago ( just a few days before 12th of march.

I really don't know what to do right now, feels like I just wanna pull my blanket over my head and sleep for a month or something. *sighsss*

Today was the wake for my nephew, sad day. Tho I try to be strong, for the ppl I love and the ppl who needs me , I can't just pull a blanket over my head and "ignore" all ppl around me that needs me , I just can't. I just can't let them down.

Read a story to my neice, "Winnie the Pooh and the honeytree". Not much I did for her just by reading a story, but it was something, not easy to do things when you're 11.000 km away , but she was glad that I read to her, and that's what matters.

Some ppl might wonder why I write in English when I'm Swedish, but it's because I have family and friends that don't understand Swedish , some of them understand some of it , and almost everyone in Sweden knows English anyway, plus it's English ain't as hard as Swedish when it comes to grammar and spelling.
Sure I do make typos pretty often, but I'm still learning.

So what have I done today?
I went to get lil'kiddo at my friend's place, I took Lil'kiddo to the store, coz I forgot to buy onions, came home at about 7:30 pm , shower for lil'kiddo and then bedtime story, then around 10pm I made home-made meatballs so we have lunch tomorrow, and then when I was already working in the kitchen I thought I could do meatloaf at the same time , so I did.

Now I'm just sitting here, listening to music and just trying to calm down and relax a little, but it's not working very well, feels like I'm a emotional ticking bomb :(

Thinking about my kids, my nephew , my sister and the rest of my family. That I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful family, of course , I don't get along with everyone in my family, but I think that's pretty normal.

I just wanna make everything good, take all the pain away from everyone, give everyone their loved persons back, kids, teens, friends and family, I would if I could, but I can't.

The only thing I can do is to do what I can for everyone, as much as I can and have energy to do.

I have so much that I would like to say, but I can't put it out in words, my head is kinda messed up, and I know it.

So I'll stop here, maybe write more tomorrow or something .

Please just remember , take care of your family and the ppl around you that cares about you and loves you.
Because you never know for how much longer you'll have them.
Tell ppl you love them, coz you can never tell them to often.

My american Dad told me something like this " Don't be unhappy for what you don't have, be happy for what you have because you never know for how long you'll have it "

And that's so very true, even if it's hard to understand and think like that .

Hugs and kisses